小紫蕾

Well, I’m watching Honey on the tele and it’s such a good bad film. So envious of Jessica Alba’s body, face, EVERYTHING and boy, can she move. Been going to the gym a lot in the last 3 weeks, been feeling much more healthy and fit than I did before, hopefully I’ll keep this up when I’ve moved out again! Weighed myself the day before yesterday and thought I’d lost about a kilo, but no, it was just because I weighed myself in the morning before I’d eaten :( I’m actually the same weight. BOOOOOO. Ugh, actually really hungry right now ‘cos I eat my dinner at 6pm. Is currently 11pm. Refuse to eat shortly before I sleep though, THAT is exactly how one gets fat. 

Tomorrow, I have an eye test in Twickenham which will be a disaster because I know that my eye-sight has gone right down the toilet since 2 years ago when I had my last test. Still refuse to wear my glasses because it’s just uncomfortable. Other than that I’ll help my mummy buy suitcases and hopefully get a brand new one myself (muaha) and finally, get started on the re-submission drawings I was meant to begin in July. Hopefully the estate agents that I e-mailed will ring up or at least reply tomorrow as well. WOOP WOOP. God, the future scares me. Good night. x

and eating fruit instead because it’s after 10 and after the last meal of the day, and if I can’t control anything else that’s happening to me I might as well control the thing I can - the shit that goes into my mouth. (The shit that comes out of my mouth is another story)

I think I actually get angry when I can’t see you.. According to that phone call anyway. When we hung up I think I felt surges of anger because we couldn’t get our usual weekend time together. Pathetic much!??

I think I’m going to do some baking tonight since there’s nothing else to do but work and I’m still procrastinating. Haven’t baked anything for years and years, let’s see what I can come up with. I bet I just end up eating the dough or something.